Deep Breath

Today was the first Mother’s Day I haven’t broken down into tears.

I felt distant in a way because I didn’t feel my normal emotions.

This week was a difficult week. Thursday was my moms birthday and today was Mother’s Day.

16 years ago my mom passed away and every year around this time I can never fully catch my breath and my heart always skips a beat.

But…

Today it was different.

Earlier this year I made a promise to myself that I would change my perspective in a bad situation.

So, I was coming into today knowing it would be hard, but once my day started I was surrounded by my church family then went home to be surrounded by more family.

I sat on the front porch watching the children play and took a Deep Breath.

I felt okay.

I realized that even though my mom isn’t here, I still have so much love surrounding me. She wouldn’t want me to be sad every year on this day, she would want me to rejoice in the life she had.

So, thank you mom. Thank you for giving me life and surrounding me with love.