Talking

You know that feeling

That feeling of when you just have to talk to your best friend or parent about some big thing that has happened in your life or even when you are just sad?

Or… are you just like me… afraid.

I’m afraid to share my feelings with those who are close to me because of judgement and my own insecurities.

I’m worried they will leave… even worse… I’m worried they will stay.

I’ve never been the person that has that one person they tell everything to.

I have friends, I have some family.. but no one I trust enough to tell everything to.

Many of my friends don’t know the demons in my head or the things I struggle with.

Many don’t know my past…

but I trust some friends, so I tell them my past

Afraid that I’m going to get the look …. yes you know “the look”

The pity or sadness or whatever emotion They feel.

Then, on occasion someone will make a comment. Not realizing what they had just said then they give “the look”

I guess that’s why I keep things to myself. The deep, important things.

I’m sorry, I’m not trying to hide anything. I just can’t open up yet.

Maybe soon…