Like most of us know, sometimes the right decision isn’t the easiest decision.
Lately I’ve been faced with a lot of decisions and I am trying to handle them differently than I would have 4 years ago.
4 years ago I would have gotten mad and frustrated and dropped the situation all together and isolated myself…
But now…
I’m faced with the hard decision on which way I will run.
Option 1: run away from my fears
Option 2: run to face them head on
I’ve always been taught to face my fears head on and to not be afraid of rejection, but I have always acted opposite, I ran away.
Recently I changed that.
I faced my situation head on and it was one of the hardest things I have had to do.
6 months later and I am still struggling with the results.
Most of the time I feel perfectly okay
But then sometimes out of the blue I breakdown into tears and I am in overwhelming emotional pain.
This is where it is different than 4 years ago. Then, I would have bottled it up and not said anything
But now I’ve realized that God gave me these emotions to feel, and through feeling these I am healing. He’s given me people to talk to.
Yes, there are some days that I still struggle with the results of that decision but I know that God is helping me grow even though it hurts.
He is “pruning my roots”
I am so thankful for all the difficult times that God has given me. They have allowed me to grow into who I am, and I love who that is.
To anyone that reads this:
Please don’t be afraid to take risks.
Accept failure and face your fears head on.
Allow God to teach you and realize when he is “pruning” you.
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