My dad tested positive for COVID yesterday. Today is Christmas Eve.
I’m so sad that I cannot see him on Christmas because this is supposed to be time with family and community.
Instead he is in isolation.
Not the ideal way to celebrate the holiday
I will go over and open presents on the other side of a window so we can make the best out of our situation.
Throughout the past day I’ve experienced a lot of different emotions that I thought I would write down.
1. Anger
I was very angry with him for going to a Christmas party and not being safe.
I’m angry that his fiancé doesn’t wear her mask and even though she was at the party, she is not getting tested. This is making it an increased risk for everyone that she is around.
2. Sadness
I’m sad that this is the first Christmas that I haven’t been able to spend with my dad.
I’m sad I won’t be able to bug him and enjoy his presence while drinking warm coffee in front of the tree.
I’m sad because this was something I was dreading this whole time and it finally happened.
3. Anxious
The last person to get COVID in my family was put in the hospital and almost on a vent.
I’m not prepared for that if it happens to him.
He’s my only parent left and I have so many more things I need his help on.
Not that I think he’s going to die but these are some thoughts circulating in my head
And last but not least
4. Grateful
I’m grateful for everyone in my family who is taking me in during this holiday season.
I’m thankful for friends who are supporting me
I’m grateful for a church that genuinely cares about its people and is prayerfully dependent.
In summation,
If you are around your families for the holidays hug them a little tighter for me and take in every minute.
That’s all for now,
Love ya!
Ashley Erwin
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