Grief & Loss

Like I’ve mentioned before grief comes and goes in waves, and sometimes it hits you more than others and can affect all of your relationships.

I had a really hard week last week and those feelings and emotions have carried over to this week.

Last week my dad told me that him and his fiancé of 9 years were splitting up.

The news of this surprised me but didn’t shock me. They’ve been struggling for a little bit, and she never meshed well with our family.

But she was there for very influential parts of my life. Places I wanted my mother to be. Prom, graduation, college, college graduation, and many vacations and other activities.

Although I wasn’t her biggest fan she was still there and cared for me even when I pushed her away.

The one thing that really affected me was that I had to say goodbye to my dog.

Lucy, my dog, was there for me through my deep depression when I had no one or anything.

And I had to leave her for good because she was Tammy’s.

And that loss hurts deep and I don’t know why, but it does.

I hurt in my body because tammy is just another person that is gone, another one that has left my life.

BUT

It’s not just about me.

I will be okay because God has never left me and he will NEVER leave me. He can take this from me and teach me more through this. I pray that he does!

But

I also pray for my father who has to go through another break up

I pray that he will be okay with his form of grief because this will bring up many different memories and feelings from the past.

I wish I could take away is pain, hurt, and anger but I can’t.

I pray for our strength in this situation.

Anyway thank you for reading my Ted talk 🤷🏼‍♀️